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‘This Loss Will Not Destroy Me.’ Bride Poses Solo in Haunting Wedding Photos
"On Tuesday, November 22, 2016 at 6:30 p.m. Collin was on patrol. He was in the Woodbridge neighborhood, a few blocks off Wayne State University's campus. The area had seen a recent increase in car thefts. Collin had stopped a man on a bicycle and called dispatch for a backup unit. The man whom he stopped, shot Collin in the head; and his backup found him on the ground with the gunshot wound. He was transported to the hospital and emergency surgery was performed. Unfortunately, Collin passed away at 5:45 pm on Wednesday, November 23rd, 2016 (the day before Thanksgiving) from his injuries.

The events happened 11 months before our wedding day, but only 6 months after he proposed. The photo shoot took place on October 4, 2017—the week before our October 14th wedding day. Collin was taken from me that day, but not my love for him or the life we shared. That love is still there... I wanted there to be a reminder of that, years from now. I'm not particularly fond of being in front of a camera, especially in a wedding dress... in the middle of the woods... without a groom; but Rachel managed to capture more than I could have ever hoped for—things I wasn't entirely sure existed within me anymore.

She captured images that still vividly show the pain left behind; images that show I am still able to laugh, smile and be me; images that show this loss has not and will not destroy me; and my favorite, images that show I am still just as fierce as ever and refuse to let this define me. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger and I will not be broken by this. It is a chapter in my book, a very tough one. One I certainly wish I didn't have and would never wish upon anyone else. It was always a known and accepted possibility, just never one I saw coming, but then again... you never do. He will never be fully gone from my life, so I didn't want our wedding day to be a lost day. I instead wanted it to be a reminder of that love we had, for however brief it was."

Photo Credit Credits: Rachel Smaller Photography | Nikki Salgot
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