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Ellen Ticket Noification ‘The grief was his alone to bear’: Father’s despair dealing with son’s death as wife suffers from dementia
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“This photo is from just over a year ago. It is a photo of our dad at the cemetery at the place his son would be buried. Our brother, Jeff, died on January 20, 2017, after a short 3-month battle with two types of cancer.

As my dad stood in silence my mom sat in the car. She said it was too cold to get out. We gave him some time alone and stood by the car with mom. She kept asking what he was doing. What was taking him so long. We had no words and realized the grief was going to be his alone to bear. We told her he would be ready to go soon.


Becky Gacono/Our Journey Through Our Mom’s Dementia
This life changing time in our lives brought with it another dimension of our mom’s dementia. As you can imagine, the loss of a child, no matter a parent’s age, is an unexplainable grief known only by those who have experienced it firsthand. The gift dementia brought my mom is the lessening of the depth of her pain through the process of losing him, and in the end, the enormous loss. Soon after we lost Jeff was the first time I said to someone that now I understood why she has dementia. The loss of Jeff would have been unbearable for her.


Becky Gacono/Our Journey Through Our Mom’s Dementia
The downside of my mom’s dementia is the grief my dad is carrying on his own. It has been just over a year and when Jeff’s name comes up she will ask, ‘Who?’ and he will once again explain to her that it is her son, and he died from cancer and her response will be, ‘Oh’ or ‘I knew that.’ without any emotion attached.


Becky Gacono/Our Journey Through Our Mom’s Dementia
I was visiting about 3 months ago and Mom was in the bathroom and dad was saying, ‘I love you Mary Jane. I love you.’ I could hear my mom sobbing which is extremely rare. Dad came out and said mom was very upset but he wasn’t sure why. I went in to her and she wanted to be left alone. She was crying uncontrollably. I stayed with her for a few minutes and went out to dad. He said he was talking about Jeff and then after a few minutes she started sobbing. I believe she had a moment of clarity and realized Jeff was gone. We stood outside the bathroom and let her cry. It was heart breaking.

Dad went back in to her and she blew her nose and wiped her tears and he asked if she was OK. She said she was. He pushed her back into the living room. I asked her how she was doing and she said, ‘I’m fine. I don’t know why I was so sad.’


Becky Gacono/Our Journey Through Our Mom’s Dementia
There has been no more sobbing since then, at least not by my mom.

Dad still drives locally, so when he has to run to the store or the VA he will drive to the cemetery to visit with Jeff without mom. It helps with the grief he has had to deal with alone.

For our dad there are no positives of dementia.”

Via Becky Gacono, 55, of Annville, Pennsylvania. She is chronicling her mother’s dementia journey in a series of posts for :
Credits: Our Journey Through Our Mom's Dementia.
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bgacono 150 points
I'm not sure if someone can help but the first 6 paragraphs of this story do not belong to the story I wrote about my mom's dementia and how my dad is handling it.  Can anyone help me get it corrected?
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Mar 13